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Leoshi
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Nice Guys Finish Last

Posted by Leoshi - March 29th, 2010


There are times when my days and my life are going so well, I just want to drive out somewhere with my friends and chill. Forget our responsibilites, forget our troubles, forget our worries, even for a few short hours.

Other times, I'm made into a broken mass of pain, with one phrase repeating itself: "Nice guys finish last."

It's odd. Despite all the sacrifices I've been making for my family, they don't seem to notice - or appreciate it. They fail to acknowledge the troubles I'm fighting through, instead choosing to place their wants and problems in front of my own. And I know why they do it, too. It's because they know I'll do whatever I can to help them.

Shouldn't sacrifice come with reward? Shouldn't my suffering and torment come to an end that justifies the means? I've been dealing with numerous conflicts and demons for the last four months, all of which seem to make every new day just a little bit darker and longer.

I won't let up - I can't. I have too much going on to simply abandon it all, and I have too many dreams and plans that have gone unrealized. But there are times that I simply wonder to myself, "Is any of this worth it all?"

I work in a horrible job. I do a damn good job there. I sacrifice my freedom and time for my family. My family demands more. I maintain contact with friends. My family condemns me for it. I focus on schoolwork and income. My family overlooks it all.

Nice guys finish last, indeed.


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